Oh how I've longed for you, so often wronged for you and feeling the scars… My eyes toward the stars hoping to see you, to feel you, to be with you or just to be… loved!
In the thick of it. In the thin of it… Kneading into my flesh, this hopeless mesh that is my heart… And the very part that yearns for you, burns for you, an eternal flame. In the night, I call out your name… Do you hear me… Calling through the darkness? If so, then hearken to me now. Show a flicker of your flame and let it light… Will you tonight?
I am on cloud nine and to tell you the truth, there is still no sign of rain. I have fallen and I can't get up… I am injured by this love… Will you heal me? I am just so blown away and moved, that any doubt of my love for you is removed, for fate has proved that I was right all along... That we belong together… not just for a moment, but forever.
I am breathlessly awaiting and anticipating, no longer debating… For I no longer have any fear, except the fear of not being in your arms, or tasting your kisses, or feeling your touch, or the warmth of your character… Which to others may be uncharacteristic of your nature, but which I find to be the real person in you…
For in me lies the ability to see the reality that is such a part of you… And which stands apart from those who fail to even recognize the genius of your spirit; but instead, hold on to the in-genius of their wrong impressions… Which now leaves me with the impression that they have truly missed out on a heart of gold.
Oh how handsome you are my knight in shining armor! I love you more than words could ever say. When I saw you, I wanted it to last forever…
To feel that safety in the refuge of your arms, guarding and protecting me, eternally, as eternally, I am yours… Spinning effortlessly out of the control of this hole, which has had this hold for far too long.
Too long! Too long! TOO long… Have I been waiting, stirring in this hunger, as the hunger is on what desire feeds. I long for… I love… I breathe you! I feel you… I ache for… I need you… In the darkest part!
In this hollow heart have I cried those empty hours and sleepless nights… Spent thinking and winking… Lying and blinking back the tears falling from my soul… As it is empty, I am empty… Needing to be full… Or better yet filled to the brim… To the rim… Of my barren existence.
As at this rate, in this space… I AM WANT! I want to be still, considered, thrilled… Where your loving arms hold me and console me as I have never been comforted before… A new way out, a new way in, as I make it through a new and hopeful door.
I have a dream: one day, I'll be quietly, hungrily, snuggling under your touch, your love, your warmth! Safely under your spell, your kiss, your…Heart!
Am I reeling, soon to be kneeling before the healing powers of your fountain? That cavernous mountain of redemption, taking me high above the exemption of your pushing me aside…But yet pulling me beside the warmth of your masculine horn... Serenading me with its tune of love as it stands in ovation to the clapping of my strong and engaging cymbals as they clash! Will you crash? Will you bow to the prayers of my moan, preying upon me, and will it be shown? Will you bask in the light of its shiver? Can you deliver and bring it home?
Am I alone in this dwelling? In this place of constant passion, erected, resurrected, and connected to the line of my seed… Going to this endless need… Will you feed me?
In the dark or light, devoid of indecision, making love with keen precision… Almost like a brand new religion… I pray. I confess. I kneel. I bow. I repent. Will you bless me?
Through the river of dreams and from the mist of my desire, I am taken hire, as we both cling together like a thong… A redemption song.
Will you redeem me? Save me? Will you bathe me in the pool of your bath, immersing me in the flow of your stream, making this no longer a dream? Do you even grasp what I mean?
The heart of a woman is needing, feeling, pleading, and so often yielding to the power of her intended, whom she has befriended and dares to love… Always dreaming of his touch, his kiss, his arms folding about her, feeding her with its charms… Like a warm coat wrapping about her soul, shielding her from the cold which sets her apart from him. Well, so is my heart: afraid to beat too fast in this desire that burns like a fire… A forever blaze…
Leaving me stunned and amazed at the magnitude of my gratitude of your affection… As I steer towards your direction, yearning for your protection from the harsh stirs that have left me barren from the start. Well, there you have it, for that is my heart… My heart. MY HEART!
I love you my dearest, and you are at the nearest. May thou preparest a place for us to be together… for always and forever… for I will leave you never… And on that you can trust.
My Love always,
Tawana Ashley Sanders.